Is 1000,1100 calories a binge?
Maybe a small one,huh?
Yesterday was horrbile ...the evening and night was just horrible!! After dinner I had this overwhelming feeling and need to stuff my face with all sorts of food. And although there was tofu with sy sauce for dinner I still had a tremendous craving for it!
I fought with myself about 1 hour or so... I went out and did my sideline job (kinda doing the paperround) muttering permanently to myself :
"You don' really want that! You're strong and pride don't let yourself be ruled by a small moment of weakness! You already had a small portion of delicious tofu, it will not do you any better if you eat more, DON'T go to the supermarket!! Itis not worth it! "Remember Saturday, you girl friend is celebrating her birthday and your stupid ex BF will be there and you will look absolutely amazing in your new lilac dress, you do want to make him jealous,right?? Don't spoil all the work with a bloated tummy!!!"
It didn't really help =( I didn't buy the 400g package of tofu(500cals) but cornichons and veggies worth 300cals. Everythign seemed to be fine, I almost felt a bit superior because I seemed to have won the fight against myself.
Buttttttt......
When Desperate Housewives was over, I went from my father's love's home (where also my half siblings live- it is only 5minutes away to walk) at home and unfortunately there was still a petite portion of tofu with rice left and within seconds,kinda beyond my control, it was in my stomach....2 apples followed.
So, do you think these 100 /1100 calories binge was very bad?
Maybe I could see it as a small metabolism boost day,couldn't I?
When I mneasured my butt and thighs this morning,they were not any bigger ,maybe even a bit thinner...still about 52cm
Today I have already consumed 870 cals (1kg carrots,400g small dices of tofu and 370g cornichons with a bit of mustard to dip everything in)
But I am still going to burn around 200~250 calories since there are still some magazines left I have to deliver.
SO that would bring me down to 670cals. I don't really want to eat anything more today, I'm extreeeemely full. Tomorrow I will not eat anything until dinner in order to flatten my stomach and after dinner I will have nothing but some linseeds. Eating them keeps me busy but they don't make my tummy look as if I'm pregnant...
If I will manage this I will hopefully have a nice flat stomach on Saturday and look stunning. :)
Lots of love,
Minaralou
PS.: I totally flunked the small maths test but did really well in the vocab. and the small grammar test in French :P
Maybe a small one,huh?
Yesterday was horrbile ...the evening and night was just horrible!! After dinner I had this overwhelming feeling and need to stuff my face with all sorts of food. And although there was tofu with sy sauce for dinner I still had a tremendous craving for it!
I fought with myself about 1 hour or so... I went out and did my sideline job (kinda doing the paperround) muttering permanently to myself :
"You don' really want that! You're strong and pride don't let yourself be ruled by a small moment of weakness! You already had a small portion of delicious tofu, it will not do you any better if you eat more, DON'T go to the supermarket!! Itis not worth it! "Remember Saturday, you girl friend is celebrating her birthday and your stupid ex BF will be there and you will look absolutely amazing in your new lilac dress, you do want to make him jealous,right?? Don't spoil all the work with a bloated tummy!!!"
It didn't really help =( I didn't buy the 400g package of tofu(500cals) but cornichons and veggies worth 300cals. Everythign seemed to be fine, I almost felt a bit superior because I seemed to have won the fight against myself.
Buttttttt......
When Desperate Housewives was over, I went from my father's love's home (where also my half siblings live- it is only 5minutes away to walk) at home and unfortunately there was still a petite portion of tofu with rice left and within seconds,kinda beyond my control, it was in my stomach....2 apples followed.
So, do you think these 100 /1100 calories binge was very bad?
Maybe I could see it as a small metabolism boost day,couldn't I?
When I mneasured my butt and thighs this morning,they were not any bigger ,maybe even a bit thinner...still about 52cm
Today I have already consumed 870 cals (1kg carrots,400g small dices of tofu and 370g cornichons with a bit of mustard to dip everything in)
But I am still going to burn around 200~250 calories since there are still some magazines left I have to deliver.
SO that would bring me down to 670cals. I don't really want to eat anything more today, I'm extreeeemely full. Tomorrow I will not eat anything until dinner in order to flatten my stomach and after dinner I will have nothing but some linseeds. Eating them keeps me busy but they don't make my tummy look as if I'm pregnant...
If I will manage this I will hopefully have a nice flat stomach on Saturday and look stunning. :)
Lots of love,
Minaralou
PS.: I totally flunked the small maths test but did really well in the vocab. and the small grammar test in French :P
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Oh thanks for your comment!! I really let my ED get the best of me sometimes :)
But my binges are categorized by the things I eat, that I really didn’t want to eat. So in a way that is a binge in my book, but it not bad at all! 1100Cal right? And you didn’t go for your crave, which is really a hard thing to do. I mean, when I “binge” I always go for the craving. I can’t seem to stop and eat something else to make the pain and the hunger end! I am proud of you. :)
Hang in there!
Love Cille
It was a healthy food binge. Not like my 2 bowls of apple crumble and ice cream tonight. . .
Good luck for saturday!! I hope your Ex des of envy :D
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