At the moment i feel like shit.I slept pretty awfully last night...overwhelmed by a sudden wave of anxiety,feeling worthless and fat(well I binged the past days so...)
...and decided on a new plan.I counted the days until Christmas and multiplied them with 100,because I expect that will be average amount of grams I will lose from now on.
I shall not allow myself any food until dinner.I shall survive school and the rest of the day until meal time by drinking lots of water and taking my supplements.
There is now excuse to eat,for it only makes me fatter=unhappier
If I have to be a loser and fail a Maths(maybe even Physics and Chemistry...we'll see?) which is 100% sure at least I can lose weight. And be a good student in all the other subjects.
Just to save a tiny bit of my sense of self-worth.
Today I started by getting 13/15 points in my French vocab test and 14/15 points in my Politics&Economy test. And I will try my best for tomorrow's German exam,even if we were handed hardly any stuff to prepare ourselves for this.
Fuck it, I'll devote myself completely to being in touch with you,reading your lovely blofs and studyying,studiying,studying. I even managed to organise myself a private tuition from a friend of mine who's got Maths as an intensive course,so there is still hope I'll do better in the 2nd exam.
How was you Halloween? Mine wasn't. It literally did not happen.Just a normal day except for the part when four or five times our bell rang but my father refused to open. " This stupid Halloween stuff,this is just soo annyong and ridiculous!!"
And I honestly have to agree.This poor version of Halloween IN germany just sucks. Either you do it right (like in America and UK) or you simply don't do it anyway.
Gosh I am sooo looking forward to going to UK for one year as as Au-pair after I have graduated.
Celebrating Halloween properly at last is only one thing I'll love about this stay.
Sorry,have nothing interesting to tell you today but
Hell yeah I really trying my best to behave like a proper anagirl
xxx,
Minaralou
...and decided on a new plan.I counted the days until Christmas and multiplied them with 100,because I expect that will be average amount of grams I will lose from now on.
I shall not allow myself any food until dinner.I shall survive school and the rest of the day until meal time by drinking lots of water and taking my supplements.
There is now excuse to eat,for it only makes me fatter=unhappier
If I have to be a loser and fail a Maths(maybe even Physics and Chemistry...we'll see?) which is 100% sure at least I can lose weight. And be a good student in all the other subjects.
Just to save a tiny bit of my sense of self-worth.
Today I started by getting 13/15 points in my French vocab test and 14/15 points in my Politics&Economy test. And I will try my best for tomorrow's German exam,even if we were handed hardly any stuff to prepare ourselves for this.
Fuck it, I'll devote myself completely to being in touch with you,reading your lovely blofs and studyying,studiying,studying. I even managed to organise myself a private tuition from a friend of mine who's got Maths as an intensive course,so there is still hope I'll do better in the 2nd exam.
How was you Halloween? Mine wasn't. It literally did not happen.Just a normal day except for the part when four or five times our bell rang but my father refused to open. " This stupid Halloween stuff,this is just soo annyong and ridiculous!!"
And I honestly have to agree.This poor version of Halloween IN germany just sucks. Either you do it right (like in America and UK) or you simply don't do it anyway.
Gosh I am sooo looking forward to going to UK for one year as as Au-pair after I have graduated.
Celebrating Halloween properly at last is only one thing I'll love about this stay.
Sorry,have nothing interesting to tell you today but
Hell yeah I really trying my best to behave like a proper anagirl
xxx,
Minaralou
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I don't forget you!! You should be studying hard (I'm not. . . AAAAHHH!!)
Yay for the high marks!! And the tutoring? Awesome!!
I saw a bunch of people wandering around in costumes heading to parties, but halloween was just another day for me. Stupid work, lol.
Ugh, neighbour's kids are here. Longer comment later
<3
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